Looking Like Me

I was disturbed this weekend when I was skimming through Buzzfeed (#productive) and saw a story about a woman who has gotten over $20,000 worth of surgeries so that she can look more like Jennifer Lawrence. I mean, I love JLaw too…but what?

I cannot imagine wanting to look like anyone else in the world but myself.

Don’t get me wrong, there are plenty of people whose looks I can admire. Would I scoff at having Michelle Obama’s arms? No. Would I complain about having Jillian Michaels’ abs? No. Would I complain if I had Beyoncè’s everything-from-the-neck down? Are you crazy?! Absolutely not. But would I want Michelle’s face and body or anyone else’s? No.

I’ve definitely had moments, especially in those frustrating early teenage years, where I just wanted to be cuter. I wanted to be one of those seemingly gorgeous, effortless, popular girls. But even then, I knew that what I wanted was not to be them in full, but to just be a more gorgeous, more effortless version of myself.

Today, having exited that horribly awkward time of life, I have a much greater sense of self. Still now, I would never want to look like anyone else.

I get up every morning and look in the mirror, and I know that although what I see is sometimes a little tired, a little smudgy with makeup I didn’t quite take off the day before, or a little imperfect, what I see in the mirror is me. It’s the same face in the photos of my childhood, it’s the same face I’ll have into the future.

Although I currently have no desire for any cosmetic surgery, I can understand having a nose job or chin implants or all sorts of those procedures, should you decide you want them. But I cannot understand wanting to look like someone else in full.

Who knows. At some point in the future I might chop off my hair and dye it brown. I might decide to only wear black eye makeup and get twenty ear piercings. But at least at the end of the day I’d look in the mirror and still know that under everything, I see me. Not Jennifer Lawrence, not anyone else.

I think the most curious part of the story for me is that this woman has a daughter. How do you explain to your child why you’ve gotten $20,000 of plastic surgery to look like someone else while encouraging her to be herself? Interesting.

How do you feel about the Jennifer Lawrence look-alike? Do you feel that your face is part of who you are, or is it of less importance to you?

Have a wonderful Monday!

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My One Hundredth Post!

Today’s post is my one hundredth! I would have never thought when I started this blog that I’d get here so quickly, but since I’ve been blogging daily, the posts have just been adding up! For today, I figured I’d do something a little different. A hundredth post merits a hundred things, right? So today I’ll be sharing a hundred things about myself.

Ten songs I can’t stop singing right now:

5 unforgettable Taylor fails

  1. The time I stabbed myself in the foot with a rusty trowel by swinging it toward my foot while trying to participate in some demolition work
  2. The time I accidentally gave my mom’s personal cell phone number to a telemarketer
  3. The time I hit our boat with my car
  4. The time I dumped Chinese food all over my boyfriend’s lap not five minutes after we’d reunited
  5. The time I sprayed dry erase board cleaner (it was called Awesome) in my eye and ran around my house screaming, “I HAVE AWESOME IN MY EYE!” to the confusion of my family

Ten foods I cannot live without:

  1. Sesame chicken
  2. Blueberries
  3. Pasta
  4. Bread (any kind)
  5. Black tea
  6. French fries
  7. Burritos
  8. Creme brulee
  9. Chocolate
  10. Cheese

5 unforgettable Taylor falls

  1. The time I fell down my stairs over Christmas break and bruised everything on my body
  2. The time I tripped over a full-sized safety cone in a construction zone while trying to be super cool during my first time visiting my boyfriend in DC
  3. The time I fell down an escalator face-first
  4. The time I fell down a hill while carrying my saxophone and took a random guy out with me
  5. The time I fell out of a booth at a busy restaurant because I had no idea there was a step down and drew a crowd

Ten things I will probably never write about on this blog:

  1. Video games
  2. Politics
  3. Anything super-controversial
  4. Science fiction
  5. Architecture
  6. Microbiology
  7. Tap dancing
  8. Astronomy
  9. Statistical models
  10. Brad Pitt

Five books I’ve reread multiple times:

  1. The Princess Diaries series by Meg Cabot
  2. All American Girl by Meg Cabot
  3. The Giver by Lois Lowry
  4. The Diary of Anne Frank
  5. Disciplines of The Beautiful Woman by Anne Ortlund

Ten women I want to be like:

  1. Michelle Obama
  2. Beyonce
  3. Ellen DeGeneres
  4. Amy Adams
  5. Jennifer Lawrence
  6. Amy Poehler
  7. Hillary Clinton
  8. Sandra Bullock
  9. Eleanor Roosevelt
  10. My mom!

Five winter fashion staples I cannot live without:

  1. Leggings
  2. Combat boots
  3. A comfy sweater
  4. A blingy sweater
  5. A tunic

Ten things I wish I could do:

  1. Dance
  2. Sing
  3. Draw
  4. Cook (well)
  5. Paint
  6. Run without dying
  7. Take good photos
  8. Walk without falling at least once
  9. Ice skate
  10. Walk in heels gracefully

Ten things I am very thankful for:

  1. My family
  2. Friendship
  3. My health
  4. The opportunity to study here at Penn
  5. Diversity
  6. Forgiveness
  7. Love
  8. Hugs
  9. Miracles
  10. Second chances

Ten little things that make life worth living:

  1. Impromptu drives/jam sessions
  2. A well-made Starbucks latte
  3. A hug when it’s most needed
  4. Opening the blinds in the morning and seeing a blue sky
  5. When a plan falls into place
  6. Giving someone the perfect gift
  7. Receiving the perfect gift
  8. Someone that knows you inside and out and still loves you
  9. A great hair day
  10. A comfortable pair of really cute shoes

Ten of my favorite posts I’ve written:

  1. On Unpredictability and Being Punched by My Five-Year-Old Sister
  2. Leaving a Legacy
  3. Diamonds Aren’t Forever
  4. I’m Not Fun-Size, I’m Just Short
  5. Love’s Sorta-Kinda Like the Movies
  6. What I’ll Tell My Future Daughter About Love
  7. Life’s Too Short to be Miss Photogenic
  8. The Unhelpful Guide to Being In a Long-Distance Relationship
  9. Fashion Tips from Tiny Taylor
  10. Clouded Vision: My Struggle with Anxiety

If you’ve been with me for awhile or have just started reading, thank you for your readership! I’ve enjoyed writing these 100 posts and I’m excited to keep writing. 🙂

Xoxo,

Taylor